Accidental Detox

Of all things to come back from the dead and blog about.....this is it.

I have so many blog post ideas running through my head, moments with the girls that have been so funny I knew I had to share, but this is what I got:

I love coffee. I mean, L.O.V.E. coffee. My sister-in-law and I share this thought that if we find out that someone doesn't drink coffee, there's a bit of a let down. As delightful as they are or as much as we hit it right off the bat, a sense of "our relationship will only go so deep" comes across my mind when I think of sipping my hot cup of coffee solo. Okay. Maybe I'm being a little dramatic, but on the flip side, there is such a feeling of nostalgia sitting down with a friend and having deep, meaningful convos. I love it!

Anyway, so now that my affection for coffee is out there, onto my dilemma. I usually accidentally get addicted to caffeine and then detox once I realize it. But since my second child came along, it's been an ongoing year-and-a-half necessity. Which I really am fine with. I'm comforted to know that I am not alone amidst the mama community. Especially with nights like last night, where Naiya was up two or three times wanting to be cuddled in our bed. Which I swore I would never do. But each time she made it into our bed, she rolled around and flailed and babbled, and Ryan would scoop her up and put her back in her crib (which is a pack 'n play in our walk-in closet).

But in the last month, I was a bit annoyed at my addiction. While traveling or being at the mercy of someone else's early morning routine, I found it extremely high maintenance to suffice my need for it. Does anyone else have this problem? For example, I went to visit my grandparents in sunny Palm Springs, CA and they happen to drink decaf each morning. Faithfully drink decaf every morning. But me? I went as far as to bring my espresso maker (goes on the stovetop) and my aerolatte for lovely, milky foam (which I left there..argh). I even thought about bringing a bag of espresso ground coffees, but thought that might be crossing unhealthy coffee-drinking boundaries. But I also ran into being let-down every morning because I didn't have my Coffeemate creamer. My love of my coffee life. Anyone that knows me well, knows my affinity with creamer. And not just any creamer. Only Coffeemate. But all of this accomodation made me a bit aware of my caffeine problem. And coffee snobbery, but that's another post for another time.

So moving on to this last Tuesday morning. I've started meeting with my sister-in-law Jenna, and good friend, Bailey every Tuesday morning at 6 am for a Beth Moore bible study (on the fruits of the spirit). Well, I would normally wake up a tad earlier to squeeze in a cup of coffee before leaving the house. But I slept too long and was left to hope and pray my sis-in-law would have found her way around the house she is housesitting for, in order to brew a pot of coffee. She delivered! And as we sat and drank coffee and talked about what was going on in our lives, I found myself wanting to close my eyes and curl up for a nap. As not to be rude, I kept my eyes open, but knew I had that blank stare going on. I had no idea why I was that tired, and then it donned on me. "I wonder if I'm drinking decaf?" So I went to warm up my cup of coffee and inspected the coffee bags out on the counter. Two bags: Dunkin' Donuts and Seattle's Best. I looked a bit closer to see the tiny, tiny green decaf printed on the Seattle's Best. Then hollered to see which coffee was used. She said, "Seattle's Best, isn't it good?!" Then we all laughed hysterically at the fact that it is decaf and I've been all but falling asleep on the couch because of it.

But I took that as the first step of my detox process. No caffeine for me in two days. I've been exhausted and had some headaches, but hopefully they will pass. They better. I've even taken naps the last two days in the afternoon. I don't remember the last time I took a nap! I sit with my decaf espresso though, and hope to be free from caffeine's bondage. Okay, not really. But I would like to have the alternative of being able to drink caffeine when I've had a rough night, but not need it on an every day basis. We'll see how that goes.